My Love is MEANT to YOU :)

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Don't wanna HUG , don't wanna KISS !

Well Hello,
I don’t know about you . I don’t know about everyone else . But this mind wonders of others’ . Have you ever felt like crying for no reason and you want to restrain yourself because you know the moment those tears start to flow it becomes endless but you just can’t help the feeling and so it starts to drop . Have you ever felt so tired of everything and everyone else ? World-fatigue , as some might say . Has it ever been frustrating for you to be given no choice but to please everyone but yourself and you’re not able to object because you just don’t want things to be more complicated than it already is . Is it not okay to have selfish intentions when at the end of the day all that actually and really matters is your feelings , your concerns ? Does it ever get lonely at night when you’re all alone and have no one to turn to when everything turns to shit ? I wonder of freedom , how does it feel like to be careless, selfless and thoughtless . How does it feel to have ignorance by your side because I wanna know if it makes you feel any more superior , any better . How does it feel like to not be questioned of everything you do , everything you say and your reactions ? Is it any fun to take risks , seize the day and grab chances regardless of what the consequences might be because you choose to make the most out of life because you believe that is what everyone deserves ? Does it feel fantastic to not have anyone dictate your doings , right or wrong . Even if they do , how does it feel to ignore such jeers ? Does it go down deep , and hurt as hell when other fuckheads try to show you how to live your life and try to walk the talk as if they know how the world goes when they can’t even keep their lives organized ?

I Don't Want To Wake You Up , Buttttt .............

Well Hello,

Girl has a fair point. I believe people these days should cut us some slack. Its not like we're idiots. We'll come around. Just give a little bit of time to fool around, I mean like come on, we're teenagers for crying out loud. You wouldnt want to see a 45 year old prancing around in a tight dress, dancing with boys my age, would you? No, I dont think so.


In my opinion, just because some are simply not allowed to have much freedom in their high school years due to protective parents do not make them kids worth your respect. Those that have all the freedom in the world, but chose not to abuse it should be the ones you look up to.


Im not insulting my own race, but most malays these days, are trying way too hard to impress the crowd and fit in. Some you may see studying in class, wears a tudung or a songkok for all I care, says the nicest things, but behind their parents' backs, they sneak out at night, fuck around as if theres no tomorrow. Smokes around the school compound, I mean sure, I dont mind you doing it, but seriously, in school?


Then there are the malays that have pictures of themselves gripping alcoholic drinks as if theyre saying IM GOING AGAINST MY OWN RELIGION, HOW FRIGGIN COOL IS THAT?, Oh come on, its your life, okay I get it. But be honest to yourself man, what are you trying to prove? Sure, Im holding a heinekken bottle and Oh, shit, dont add my mum, she might see my photos!

I understand that we, as teenagers, tend to lose ourselves along the path of growing up. We have temptations. But god, you can at least do it with a little bit of class. Screw everyone you see, I dont care, just dont be a hypocrite and say something like, ew look at her dressing up like a slut, she might as well just sleep with her boyfriend. Now thats, hypocritical.

Every Drop of Blood :(

Well Hello,

I wish you knew how much it hurts, every tear, every slice, and its all because of you. I wish you knew how frustrated I am. I wish you knew how hard I try to impress you every single day and do things you approve of. I wish you knew what Im feeling right now. The pain is unbearable. I wish you would understand. I wish you knew how much I minimized my massive ego just to tolerate with yours. But you dont. I guess Im at fault, I always am. Take me away.

SHUT UP YOU , FUCKERRONI !!!!

Well Hello,

I don't know why I hate and loathe her so much eventhough I'm, yela baiklah juga dengan dia. Because she makes my life seems very terrible. She took half of my life, that's mean she took half of what I got. Isn't that a SHIT?! Oh man, come on, can you please stay with what you have and learn not to steal what people have, I mean their properties. I've been so patience with you all this while. Thank God, I didn't hate you like people that listed on my blacklist. Sometimes I felt that you're something psycho that came from a middle of nowhere. Can't you see that? Yes, I am, Nur Farhah Izreen , girl that is very bad to some people she didn't like. But I'm not as bad as a stalker like you. Yes, I admit I'm very thug sometimes. But at least, I didn't destroy other people's life. So, please don't make me stressed. I don't want to burst or mad at you because that is not my game. I just want my life back, okay? Thank you very much for what you did to me. Sorry, if I hate you but in fact, I'm really mad at you. So, please. But A, I still believe in you. So, don't make the believing dissappear just because of this matter.

Did You ??

Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home, in your room? Your parents don't know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don't know because you talk as if you're fine and dandy behind the computer screen. Well you're not fine and dandy, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don't bother telling them, you bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles.

We Have To Realise

Well Hello,

Sometimes you have to run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who’s actually listening. Sometimes you have to take a step back, just to see who’s still standing by your side. Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, just to see who’s there when it all falls down. Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back.